I’m glad I decided to participate this year. I’ve neglected my writing for far too long, and while the month was overshadowed by some heavy shit (because of course there’s always heavy shit), it made for a lot of good writing exercises.
I didn’t think I’d make it because some days it felt like such a slog and I couldn’t get the thoughts inside my head onto the screen. Though I also don’t stop and give myself enough credit and acknowledge my abilities to get shit done.
I’ve alluded to a bunch of ideas this month, beyond that whole exvangelical deconstruction arc, and some of them will definitely make their way here in the not-so-distant future. I won’t spoil all of it, but I will certainly share more about my home lab, future travel plans, and at least some small fragments of content creation (you know, the content that isn’t my writing).
Showing up daily with something I can’t cheat my way through (well, I could, but I absolutely won’t lmao) has been a really nice change. It’s also been therapeutic, which is great because I know my therapist will want to hear all about it next time we meet.
And sometimes overwhelming, because the heavy shit likes to get in the way. But also because I’ve been so busy between long, jam-packed work days and then evenings of attempting to unwind while avoiding disassociating, and all-out exhaustion and burnout.
This year, Blaugust was about showing up for myself. I set a few goals, and managed to achieve them. Next Blaugust, I’d like to think I’ll be more seasoned in my writing, after dusting off most of the cobwebs, and find my way digging more into the community vibe.
But who am I kidding? I’m a gremlin without a plan.